Twinkles

Okay buddys you have my permission to kick me. I haven’t worked out at all this week. Go ahead…..

I keep making the excuse Im too tired to go in the morning but Im tired because my body wants to exersize. So to get back, I am going to the gym all weekend and today. I am taking off work early but instead of relaxing, I am heading to the gym to make up the missed workout this morning. I gotta stick with it, I didn’t come all this way to stop. Mini goal within the week and I will do it.

I get to meet santa tomorrow and go to the Christmas Parade. Okay so its for my daughter but I think I have more fun than her. I haven’t enjoyed the holidays this much since before my mother passed away.

Going to Denver soon so I have some items to buy like new spanx, shoes, and a clutch. I have a very formal dress and I want to be flawless. These people haven’t seen me in 30lbs so I want to look like it. Plus my birthday is coming up and Im sure Marc will want to go out. I really need to find a babysitter so that I can have and real date night.

Really ready for the end of the year. I take off work the last week of the year, daughter still goes to daycare, and Marc works. So for one week I get to be Mary, I get to sip coffee at Starbucks without interuption. I get to sleep, I get to run around without my shadow. Lord, I need it. I love marc and my daughter to death but they can hassle me sometimes. Ready sooooooooooooo ready.

Well work is calling me. Take care everyone and I promise I will get back to the exercising!!

I didn’t work out this morning as I had planned. To be honest, I cant remember turning off the alarm at 4:30 this morning. So now I feel guilty.

Just going to have to do it tomorrow, NO EXCUSES. I think my week is just being long. School is in crunch time mode so now it is study, study, study. Money is always tight this time of the year. At least I have time off to look forward to.  I think my emotion are running me instead of my brain. But I should have my 2 year degree next semester and then I can go part time school. Argh.

Time is such a fickle lover, it goes fast when we dont expect it or painfully slow when we are ready to continue.

Well everyone, have a great day!

Woo Hoo my butt looks good. I hope no one at work reads this.

I have NEVER worn 12. As a little girl I went from 22 1/2 in childrens right to 13’s and those never truly fit. So here I sit in my 12’s happy as a clown. I have a pair of 10’s calling my name in my closet. Who would have guessed that in 2007 I would go from 18 to 12. Holy cow, next year I am hitting single digits.

I haven’t worked out this week but I am going tomorrow. I keep making excuses to myself and that is not going to let me stop from my good trends. I have to loose three more pounds in 10 days and I will.

Had a great food revelation yesterday, I didn’t obsess about it. Usually I have to think every moment about food and calories and portion sized but yesterday I didn’t and I was way under my food allowance. But it didn’t bother me and I wasn’t hungry. And that is what I need to be everyday. I cant let food control my every thought. Its another small step in the weight loss journey.

Started journaling at home and I have lost some more inches off my body. I am hoping the hips will start to melt away.

Well thanks to all my buddies who read and forgive me if I am not the greatest at this yet. I try to read and post as I can.

Buenos Dias!

Oh my goodness, I lost weight Thanksgiving weekend. 2 more pounds have gone from this body. I can survive holidays and weekends. It was the first good weekend since I can remember.

I worked out 4 times last week. I didn’t get a chance this morning because the roads were frozen and I refuse to attempt driving my new car on ice. I drove 30 the whole way to work this morning. I pissed off the Lexus behind me. He was tailgating my bumper so I slammed on the brakes. He backed up then.

TLC had a marathon of Brookhaven Obesity Clinic. That is a terribly sad show. It details morbidly obese people and their paths to loose weight. It makes me grateful I never had to battle weight or as much as they do.

It was a good motivator to eat my fruit and veggies this weekend. Another way to stop snacking is to eat in front of a mirror. If I feel like I am eating too much, I will stand in front of the bathroom mirror, and it quickly kills the snack monster.

Hoping to get back to the exercise grind tomorrow morning if all goes well. Hope everyone has a great day.

Have you seen it? You know, my little devil. The one voice who tries to convince me to stay home in the mornings or eat that fast food. I had him this morning but now he is no where to be found.  Hmmmmmmmmmmm, Oh well. I have to say life would be easier with out him. Maybe he will stay away……..

I am finding this morning workout thing to be getting harder and harder but somehow I still go. This morning I had a whole internal conversation about why I need to workout as opposed to sleeping. The kicker that got me out of bed? I still have more weight to loose before my birthday. 5lbs to be exact and that isn’t going to happen if a lay around. I have been going early for a while so maybe after 30 days this will become a habit.

With my “aunt flo” in town exercise and healthy eating is not the most appealing thing. I crave lots of food during this time and I have to keep it all away. It also hurts but not in the traditional way. I don’t cramp much, instead my hips will turn out. I compare it to the action of ripping off a turkey leg. Yeah it hurts. I find that yoga has eased some of the muscle pain around it but it still is not fun. Tylenol and a hot bath.

I dont have to work the rest of the week. YEAH, and the daycare is open tomorrow. Daughter is going to school while I get to 1) cook without tripping over her 2) have a nap 3) take a bath without a bath toy. Dont get me wrong, I love my daughter to the ends of the universe but sometimes I need to be Mary and not mommy or girlfriend even just for a couple of hours. I feel that women sometimes forget that we are a person and not just mommy or wife. I am a strong advocate for alone time.

I may need some coffee before the end of this blog so before I go to sleep and drool on the keyboard, I wish everyone a great day and safe, happy, healthy holidays.

Well, those are my concerns today.

In the news, some Japanese hunting boats are hunting for humpback whales.

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/21877284/

I am not much of a hippie dippie-peace-love the world kinda person but this is making me really sad. They claim scientific reasonings and culture for the need to kill upwards of 50 whales. I appreciate culture but 50!!! Plus they plan on killing many other animals. They also claim they need to kill these animals to study reproductive habits. I want to cry, I hate when people are cruel to animals. So my prayers are with the whales.

In other issues, our company sponsored wellness testing today. They do body comp, blood work, and other cool stuff to make you feel like you are unhealthy. I did it last year but I wanted to see this year’s results with 37lbs gone.

I did do aerobics this morning and nearly fell flat on my face. Can you picture a 175 lb girl flying through the air 5:30 in the morning? He he, I can.

TOM visited me yesterday and I hope with holidays, I can keep the weight gone. For a change this holiday, we are going to Marc’s family and they asked me to make the pies. I said sure since they were just going to buy them anyway. Now I just have to find a good pecan pie recipe. I keep getting this odd feeling with Marc’s family, they are nice and accepting. They keep inviting me over. I hope it all goes well. It will be my first holiday with them. Kinda nervous because I think at this rate, they might be official in-laws here soon.

So everyone, have a great monday to start a holiday week.

http://health.msn.com/dietfitness/articlepage.aspx?cp-documentid=100174649&GT1=10613

I have never seen this show but I liked this article.

Some praticle advice that I could do.

I have lately been in a funk. Almost borderline depressed until the other night. I was fed up with it all and just cried it all out to my boyfriend. Then I felt like the old me. I even talked it out with my boss and it help me to ease some work worries I have had. I wear my emotions on  my sleeves and it feels nice to have someone I can trust not to use them against me.

Well everyone keep loosing and making this world a lighter healthier place.

Much love always, Mary

God praise the woman who invented Spanx. I am reminded of a scene from Bridget Jones Diary. She is debating on what kind of underwearto wear under her clothes. The sexy undergarments that reveal every imperfection of the human body or the not so sexy body shapers that help smooth curves into the right places. Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm, I choose the latter choice most days (beside only two people see the undergarments anyway right?) She eventually ends up with the shapers and having to explain them later to a male friend. (if i remember correctly)

So I have formal business functions that require formal dress up wear. I like dresses but all mine now are way too big. So I put on the spanx to try one some stuff and I realized that its not shaping like it used too. Hmmmm, so a quick check of the size chart and I see I have dropped a size. YEAH!!!!!

Not that its all dropped sizes and veggies galore but WOW, you can beat physical results.

Did have a lapse and didn’t work out yesterday but I went this morning. Its like I have a little lazy devil and an exercise angel. Devil is loud at 4:40 am but so far, the angel gets his point accross. The world is extremely peaceful at that time. No music, no parade of boys that pass through one of our neighbors apartments, hardly any traffic, and just myself.

So who would have thunk that I could have become a morning workout person?

My weight loss stars correspond to the Christmas colors!!

4 Lbs gone in two weeks. I am back to the old me. I have even changed my eating habits enough not to count calories. (Sometimes I do a spot check to keep it in line) Who knew this thing called “exercise”  and “diet”works.

I now have a brand new incentive to loose some more weight. I learned yesterday that I get to go to North towards the mountains  in December. How georgous and right before my birthday. I am going to loose this last 6lbs for my mini goal before that. I have three weeks. If this isn’t the kick I need then I dont know what will be. We are staying in a classy hotel and everything. Someone pinch me!

I other good news. I got out of the shower today and realized that the regular size towels fit around my body again. YEAH, YEAH, YEAH!

I LOVE this time of the year. It beginning to look alot like Christmas….

That is the best way to sum up my weekend.

The Good: I did workout Sunday with a brisk walk around the neighborhood! I wasn’t feeling well and wanted to sleep but I pushed myself to do it. I weighed 176 both Saturday and Sunday. I had the gastrocopy on friday come back clean and clear. Doctors can’t find anything wrong. I worked out this morning at 5 am. I didn’t want to get up but I know its the only time I will have to workout. I will do so again and again until my body gets used to it.

The Bad: Snacking killed any hope of a diet this weekend. I couldn’t stop.  I tried but willpower was sedated. Not an excuse, I shouldn’t make those. Bad weekend. Scale reads 178 today.

The Ugly: Boyfriend had to have chinese which means all you can eat buffett. I am a people watcher and watching some of these people made me really sad. One woman claimed she only eats the fried food and one man had about we meals piled on one plate. Surprisingly, I did better than I thought still, those buffetts are traps.

Here is to another week of tests, veggies, and holiday preparation!!